Risk

Do what you feel in your heart to be right.
You’ll be criticized anyway.
~
Eleanor Roosevelt

‘How true.’ Thought Carrie, as she closed the book and removed her glasses. Sinking back into her favourite chair she closed her eyes and relaxed. The fire crackled and the room was warm and cosy. It had been a long day.

If truth were told, it was a long day at the end of a very long year. The year when she had finally decided to follow her heart. It was time to act for herself. Face the truth. A life alone was not for her, not her choice, she was wasting her skills and all the love she had to share. Living alone meant she was becoming selfish with her time and space. Many times during the past months she felt like she was jumping off a cliff and building her wings on the way down. She knew that sharing the news of her decision would not be a piece of cake.

The wall of negativity that met her was a total shock. Anyone would think she had lost her marbles altogether. The tarnished silver frame round the dulled cracked oil painting that was her face these days, was what they saw. What they wanted to see. An old girl who would sit out the remainder of her time with gentle pursuits and be available at the beck and call of family & friends to baby, animal or house-sit when needed, and then be returned to the faded old memory box of their combined past.

At sixty five she was a long way from the scrap heap. The inner fire still matched the sparkle in her eyes, There was room for pleasure, excitement and fun, as the unexpected meeting a couple of years ago proved. Friendship blossomed & deepened and each meeting made the bond stronger and all the more difficult when the time for each parting came.

No more. Carrie was now at the cliff edge. Ready to make that jump.

In the morning she would collect the young family of four children she had decided and was cleared to Foster. A whole new life was beginning….

It was my turn to provide a topic for the Loose Bloggers Consortium and I chose Risk. Now take a risk and check out the other active members: Delirious, Maxi, Maria/Gaelikaa, Maria SilverFox, Padmum, Paul, Ramana, Shackman speaks, The Old Fossil, Will Knott.

17 thoughts on “Risk

  1. Now that is one big risk that Carrie is taking. In fact four big ones. A clear sign that the heart has ruled over the head despite a great deal of time having been spend over analysing the pros and cons.

    All that I can say is “Well done Carrie!” and wish her well. I would not be able to take that kind of a decision.

  2. There are times in your life when the only way to dig yourself out of a deepening rut is to take a risk like that and do something totally different and challenging.

  3. Padmini – I didn’t know until I came to the final jump, how the story would end! Somehow it seems to have worked.

    Ramana – It would take a very brave woman to take on a young family at the age of 65. I have known one or two who took on bereaved grandchildren and made a success of it.

    Nick – Occasionally I feel restless and wonder about changing direction.

  4. GM,

    I Loved your story. Every word led me to the next with such anticipation..I couldn’t wait to know the outcome.

    You have outdone yourself this time, Grannymar…..

  5. Now that is my kind of story, but I am not sure I could take in four at 65. I would envision an older sister who was more mother than sister, two brothers who were good at sports, and not likely to get into trouble, and an adorable younest sister, who was everyone’s favorite.

    With my luck, the two brothers would be incorrigible, the oldest sister an up and coming sex addict, and the youngest a terrifying brat throwing major temper tantrums.

    Carrie certainly is about to take big risks. I am keeping good thoughts that she gets my first envisioned kids.

  6. Wow, now that is a brave woman! Actually, although not 65, my oldest sister took in her 5 grandchildren for a year. Their parents finally got their life together, and now are raising them again. But my sister keeps her foster parent qualifications up to date just in case…

  7. Barbara – Typical Teenagers so! :D

    Maria – The terrible ‘Twos’ would be easier to manage than the terrifying teenage tantrums!

    Delirious – What a wonderful thing your sister did. I would like to think, in similar circumstances, that I would do the same.

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